Thanks to all of you guys
For staying here at my side
I know you can’t understand me
Just… Don’t mind me…hehehe

once there was this poor guy
who fell inlove with this pretty lady
now their friendship os somewhat broken
and i dont still understand why.

Oh well, I think she has higher pride
And all I can help is a prayer aside
I will just believe in her ability
To finish the job and pass this thing

I can laugh, cry, and think of things
That I remembered as I see these
It’s a mess to other people I say
But it is a treasure for people like me

There is no reason for these to be thrown away
For these have been parts of my life in reality
If something here would be missing
I cannot really forgive myself in just a day

Memories of my past are here in this old case
And helps my memory to go back in my time then
I can see my similarities and differences
From the day I went out and I came in

I think it is not enough for me to say
But I think it is better to have just these
"It’s better for me to be dead anytime
As long as my memory is still alive"

yes, i saw her at that yearbook a while ago
it strucks me especially the comments on her
and i really hate those people who curse her
coz they dont know her true, kind, attitude

i can say she teaches me about everything
that would let me stay, until now, like this
she did not do anything harm to the physical me
but to the emotional me, im thinkin about it

what if? what if she really likes me
do you think im like this now?
i think no, i think im worse than me
and hardly think of you now

yes, she teaches me how to be confused
with my own lives that must not be fused
she teaches me how nice life is
but she is living in a bad dream

how can i ever save her if i cannot save myself?
how can i ever save her if she cannot sae herself?
how can one understand this poem if i cant understand this myself?
how can one know who wote this if i dont know who am i?

some children are so stubborn letting their parents go
but they do realize their importance, as they grow old
a child might not understand his parents’ feelings
but he would know and feel it, as he go to their feet

damn those people who dont prioritize family
for they do not know how hard to be alone "only"
it’s not easy for these chicks to be inside the egg
but it’s harder for a chicken to take care of them

What’s with her anyway?
Her eyes, nose, teeth, any?
I don’t know, but i’m not looking at it
Rather looking at her completely

But now I can’t even [always] see her
And that’s the reason I really misses her
For we can’t even talk and laugh together
Like what we are doing before I told her…

it’s like i was tested by love and friendship again
because until now i don’t know how to make things okay
i even don’t know how to handle such things accordingly
because even now i am not assured of my true feelings

every time i am with you, it’s like I’m at heaven with you
but if I’m with you longer, it’s like you’re sending me down
is it because you don’t like my attitude that changes fast
or my attitude that you really don’t like at first?

when would you tell me directly in a serious manner
that you don’t like the way i’m treating you?
it’s like I’m a fool assuming that everything is good
but deep inside you hate me the most of my all.

i know it’s too early to say such changing words here
but at least i have said it before it’s too late
too late that i could only know these hurting things
after you treat me in your way that puts first hate.