MOTIVATION

I don’t know what I am feeling
But I know this is different
Far better than anything
 
But I know there’s a girl
Who enters my life
Without me knowing
Without any hint
Without anything at first
 
But lately,
It’s her who made me smile
Who made my day
And made me change
It’s her who gave me hugs
That makes me relax
And lets me feel
How special I am
 
And all I want this time
Is to make her smile
Like the way she did to me
I know everything’s ordinary
But for me it’s something
 
All I wish is her safety
And her true happiness
I don’t care if she’d be mine or not
As long as she feels best, ill smile

Everything went fine
Everything are in my plan
I know nothing will happen bad
And I’m hoping for that.

Thanks to all of you guys
For staying here at my side
I know you can’t understand me
Just… Don’t mind me…hehehe

once there was this poor guy
who fell in love with this pretty lady
but the lady has her own guy
and her guy is courting her too

once there was this poor guy
who fell inlove with this pretty lady
now their friendship os somewhat broken
and i dont still understand why.

No matter how much I try
No matter how much I want
No matter how much I like
I can only do nothing but just watch

Oh well, I think she has higher pride
And all I can help is a prayer aside
I will just believe in her ability
To finish the job and pass this thing

I am not that type of person that keeps secrets
But I am the one who wants to keep antiques
That came from important people I met here
In this world that is full of reality

I can laugh, cry, and think of things
That I remembered as I see these
It’s a mess to other people I say
But it is a treasure for people like me

There is no reason for these to be thrown away
For these have been parts of my life in reality
If something here would be missing
I cannot really forgive myself in just a day

Memories of my past are here in this old case
And helps my memory to go back in my time then
I can see my similarities and differences
From the day I went out and I came in

I think it is not enough for me to say
But I think it is better to have just these
"It’s better for me to be dead anytime
As long as my memory is still alive"

now i know the reason behind my attitude
just by looking completely at her picture
that makes me wonder why i have this act
and makes me think of what if im with her

yes, i saw her at that yearbook a while ago
it strucks me especially the comments on her
and i really hate those people who curse her
coz they dont know her true, kind, attitude

i can say she teaches me about everything
that would let me stay, until now, like this
she did not do anything harm to the physical me
but to the emotional me, im thinkin about it

what if? what if she really likes me
do you think im like this now?
i think no, i think im worse than me
and hardly think of you now

yes, she teaches me how to be confused
with my own lives that must not be fused
she teaches me how nice life is
but she is living in a bad dream

how can i ever save her if i cannot save myself?
how can i ever save her if she cannot sae herself?
how can one understand this poem if i cant understand this myself?
how can one know who wote this if i dont know who am i?

it’s not good to talk about them, teens said
but they even cry secretly, without other’s head
coz, i can say, all of us have strong feelings
especially if our families are involved with

some children are so stubborn letting their parents go
but they do realize their importance, as they grow old
a child might not understand his parents’ feelings
but he would know and feel it, as he go to their feet

damn those people who dont prioritize family
for they do not know how hard to be alone "only"
it’s not easy for these chicks to be inside the egg
but it’s harder for a chicken to take care of them

It’s not the song that I usually sing
But a poem that for her I only did
Coz even her smile I can’t always see
And everyday without her, I can’t imagine

What’s with her anyway?
Her eyes, nose, teeth, any?
I don’t know, but i’m not looking at it
Rather looking at her completely

But now I can’t even [always] see her
And that’s the reason I really misses her
For we can’t even talk and laugh together
Like what we are doing before I told her…

hope you can remember the day we greet
and laugh at that wrong thing we see
hope you can read the eighth octet
and be able to understand them well
before the time that we have to separate